I am 13 and my cousin is 16. We've been close growing up sort of. But like when we are alone and talk a long time she'd lean in and we'd kiss. And I've enjoyed it odd enough. I feel creepy for liking her like this like i shouldn't but I can't help it. I live with her and their family it's hard not to give in to some feelings even though this could really get me in trouble. And bring me to another place to stay but she always is the one who started it. I know I'm weird for engaging and for being ok with it but I really fallen for her in a very bad way considering. She's just so pretty like a barbie doll so charming everything that makes for a good conversation. Everything that is perfect and she just knows all the right things to say it seems. I know I should run the other way but it seems I can't I just want to get closer to her. Any advice?