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[andrew lucas]

ok since the summer i always finding myself in these random groups of depression usually lasting a few days day, but the problem is theyre not so rare i would consider myself depressed 70-80% of the time on my spare time, the only time im really not is at school.. so noone can see..

the thing causing my depression i think is stress , with school,girls, etc but recently a big bump has occured that will overly effect me alot... alright so all my close friends, or anyone who goes to my school really lives relatively close to school i live like 10-15 car drive where no busses or nothing go by.. recently my friend who i always stay at on weekends got in shit so he cant have any more friends over atall (i was with him so im permantly kicked out of his house) now im going to find myself doing what i did in the summer sitting home with nothing to do all the time..it sounds so small of a problem but i cant stand being by myself.. thats just one of a smaller problems i have alot of bigger personal problems that arent relavent

basically what my problem is, everynight when i go to bed thinking of waking up the next day just feels like another day that i have to go do, everything lately seems like it has no answers just alot of questions, nothing seems straight forward anymore i dont know what my problem is but those are the feelings i get whether anyone understands or not i truely think i actually might have a long term depression issue .. but i dont know how to find out or who to go for it i live with just my mom (probably what makes being home even that more lonely considering shes never even home) no siblings no other family.. but i cant go to my mom for this.. it just feels like she wouldnt be the best to help me and wouldnt do a good job i really dont know what to do please just help

[sean]

I'd talk to a counselor at school, if you could. If you have problems being alone, then are there any other friends with whom you can spend time with? Also, is there any reason that you feel that your mom wouldn't help much? Any specific ones, that is.

[andrew lucas]

i have a feeling no matter how much i told my mom, or even if i did she wouldnt beleive me, or merely think its nonsense and that would just make things awkward between us for me anyways.

[sean]

Do you think she'd rather you be happy, than unhappy, though? I'm not in your situation, but I know that telling my mother helps me a lot, even though I sometimes think she won't believe it either.

[andrew lucas]

its hard for you too just say that coming from your situations, although i appreciate the advice i dont think i would want to go down that road.

[sean]

You need to talk to someone face-to-face, though. Is there ANYONE that you can talk to? Anyone at all?

[Shreyas]

I have been through that phase, sometimes talking with someone helps a lot, my depression decreased after that. You can talk with your school counselor, keep yourself busy and make some new friends. Also you can try these mind-clearing exercises.