painless way to die?

[a2p2l0]

i really havew thought i ODing on pills like tylenol but am afraid that if someone was to save me i would have to live with the side effects. so i want to learn a painless and fast way to go and die. it is so painful and i have so much hate in me for people that my heart just want to burst...
i truly wish i could cry out a river until i can't cry anymore. life is so unfair and i feel even if i do good things that a god out there will punish me. i want to go wild and kill and smash things... i want to just scream and go insane just for once... but i can't so for the past 4 years i have kept all my hate and everything inside of me.
i really feel life is but a game and you either play or you don't and i don't want to play where the god out there makes it unfair. i feel i am ugly inside and out.
is there any easy way to kill myself fast and painless?

[WhereIsTheLove?]

We're not going to give you suggestions on how to die. And anyone who does is absolutely horrible at the very least.

What you're facing is incredibly challenging, and seemingly endless and impossible to overcome, but you can get help and overcome it.

First, seek outlets. If you have all this anger, pain, etc., find something that you can take it out on. Go running, take up a hobby, take your anger out on something that isn't a living thing. Scream at the top of your lungs until you can't anymore. Do something to let this anger out that doesn't hurt yourself, or anyone else.

Second, talk to someone. Vent your feelings through words. If you don't have any friends you can open up to, try family, if not, seek a counselor at school, or someone you can trust. There is always someone who will listen. There is always someone who cares about your well-being.

Third, seek more professional help. It's often times impossible to get through it without talking to a professional. Someone who can work with you to deal with the problems you're facing, and help you through them. It may seem like a big step to ask for this help, but once you do, you'll be glad you did.

Good luck. You can and will get through this.