*Heavy Breath*

[Karxili'boq]

Hopefully this will work now:

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGG GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG GHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Zeus.]

Ummm. K ?

[Karxili'boq]

Originally Posted by Austin..

Ummm. K ?

Not in the mood for replies like this.

[Karxili'boq]

In fact... >> vent zone

EDIT: You see, it's things like this that are continually pissing me off. Little fucking things that fucking fuck up whenever they fucking want to, even though they fucking shouldn't fuck up... like just then, something fragile almost fell off my desk without anything moving it.

[C'est la Vie]

Yeah.. I'd say...

What's your tiff dude?

[Karxili'boq]

Originally Posted by C'est la Vie

Yeah.. I'd say...

What's your tiff dude?

Every-fucking-thing. It's just too much to handle on my own.

[Zeus.]

What happened?

You didn't have to make me look like an asshole. I wasn't

[C'est la Vie]

Originally Posted by The Betrayer

Every-fucking-thing. It's just too much to handle on my own.

.... story of my life.

Care to elaborate?

[Karxili'boq]

It started with my birth...

Basically, since I finished primary school, my life has gone downhill. My hopeful tennis career hopes were dashed very early on with the onset of Osgood Schlatters Disease, which fucked up my training and fucked me over. Then, in year 7, the teachers were hell from day 1. One mistake, however small, and you got a fucking mouthful down your ear from some stuck-up fuckwit on an ego-trip. Then, near the end of year 7, I got bullied. A lot. Especially due to my knee and physical look (skinny as shit). I got my knee kicked in at least twice during year 7, got teased for being 'anorexic' (which people (everyone) assumed I was), got teased for a lot of random things. People just hated me. That drove me to make an attempt on my life which obviously failed (still debating whether or not I should've tried again).

Year 8 was worse. My school disclosed my identity to the people I told them about. Leading to more bullying. I got my knee kicked in again, about 5 times. I got teased for asking someone out, and got accused of being a hardcore stalker and pedo.

Year 9 was the same. Less knee-kicking though. The accusations lingered. I (wrongly) trusted my 2 closest friends at the time with something, and they betrayed me the first day I was ill. Exams were a failure because of my mental state.

Year 10. A bit better due to people being in a better frame of mind. But then came along some twat who threw food at me every day, shouted insults at me daily, turned people against me... he was the first person i'd ever kicked the shit out of. It just kept going on. My mum was diagnosed with kidney cancer.

Year 11. Kicked the fuckwit in again and he stopped. My mum had a kidney removed. Making new friends. All gravy... until the turn of the new year. Jan-Feb was meh, March till present day has been full of crap. Emotional breakdowns. Mental breakdown. Heavy depression. Almost committed suicide but stopped myself.

College. Better than high school. Crap teachers though. Huge workloads made up of pointless activities. We'll see how it progresses. I think i'm already being talked about behind my back...

I've been to see a shrink. They did nothing. No further appointments. No help. No advice. I've ranted about it all. I've emptied out to people. But it's all just staying inside and I can't take it. Now just a little thing that goes wrong makes me go absolutely mad. I spill a drink. I go apeshit because of it. I used to have a high tolerance level, but everything that's happened over the years has lowered it.

[phantasmagoria]

Originally Posted by The Betrayer

It started with my birth...

ughhh .
Everyone's birth is the beginning of a long hard life

__________________

THE FAME MONS†ER

JE VEUX TON AMOUR, ET JE VEUX TA REVENGE , JE VEUX TON AMOUR..

Originally Posted by Lady Gaga

This is the Manifesto of Little Monster:
There is something heroic about the way my fans operate their cameras. So precisely, so intricately and so proudly. Like Kings writing the history of their people, is their prolific nature that both creates and procures what will later be percieved as 'the kingdom'. So the real truth about Lady Gaga fans, my little monsters, lies in this sentiment: They are the Kings. They are the Queens. They write the history of the kingdom and I am something of a devoted Jester. It is in the theory of perception that we have established our bond, or the lie I should say, for which we kill. We are nothing without our image. Without our projection. Without the spiritual hologram of who we percieve ourselves to be or rather to become, in the future.
When you are lonely,
I will be lonely too.
And this is the fame.
Love and Art

[El Badass]

I'm so sorry you've had to go through all that and it sounds hard but remember what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger and I bet your life later on will be better then most of theirs later on in life and I'm sure they will get what's coming to them.

PS I have Osgood Schlatters Disease too so I know what a pain in the ass it is

[Zeus.]

Originally Posted by Ericg27

PS I have Osgood Schlatters Disease too so I know what a pain in the ass it is

Should I google this?

[El Badass]

Originally Posted by Austin..

Should I google this?

It's like a swelling in the née and is painful
I'm glad mine has almost gone away

[Karxili'boq]

Originally Posted by Ericg27

It's like a swelling in the née and is painful
I'm glad mine has almost gone away

More than swelling. It's where ligaments start to come away from the bone and pull bits of the bone off with them.

[El Badass]

Originally Posted by The Betrayer

More than swelling. It's where ligaments start to come away from the bone and pull bits of the bone off with them.

Yeah I wasn't sure exactly what happens with it I just know I had it and my née swelled up alot and it hurt so bad I could barly walk for awhile