help :'(

[porridge]

heelpp i dno wat to do.. school is soon n i really dont want to go
erlia in the year around april/may i felt really sad i was crying every night and i didnt wana carry on i jus wanted to die my mum was really worried cos i made huge cuts on my hand and i posted on my msn something about lyk dieing and my cosin saw it and told her i didnt like school cos i thought noone in my class liked me, noone was talkin to me im crap at making friends so i had about 1 friend in the whole class. everything thought i was some sort of weirdo. then to top it all of one monday night the police wer round the house, that evening i was sat in my room listening to some policeman say to my dad 'you cant come back here, get some kit whatever you'll need for the next few days' so they took him off. he now lives in some flat i dont get to see him very much so i thought my life was like total shit. then when the summer holidays came my life went up and i was more happy and i started to love my life, and i was okay like last weekend, now i feel like everythings going back down again... schools gunna make everything worse, my mum and sister keep having huge arguments and i have to sit thee and listen to it i REALLY dont wanna go to school cos its gna ruin everything and my lifes gna get worse again. speshly cos i hav drama on the first day back and i swear my teacher hates me, im the quiestest one in the class and he knows it, but he still forces me to get up infront of the class and do improvisation crap. i hate it. most of the time i dont have a clue what to say and the whole class and the teacher jus sit staring at me.. i cant stand it!! i dont want to sit through another one of his lessons. im rubbish at drama and im in set 1! i dont get it
what do i dooo i dont want my life to be like it used to be and it really feels like its going that way, and im really scared about going to school and drama :'(

woaahhh essay alert. sorry if that doesnt make sense but i had to rite it somewhere....

[custodis]

Originally Posted by porridge

heelpp i dno wat to do.. school is soon n i really dont want to go
erlia in the year around april/may i felt really sad i was crying every night and i didnt wana carry on i jus wanted to die my mum was really worried cos i made huge cuts on my hand and i posted on my msn something about lyk dieing and my cosin saw it and told her i didnt like school cos i thought noone in my class liked me, noone was talkin to me im crap at making friends so i had about 1 friend in the whole class. everything thought i was some sort of weirdo. then to top it all of one monday night the police wer round the house, that evening i was sat in my room listening to some policeman say to my dad 'you cant come back here, get some kit whatever you'll need for the next few days' so they took him off. he now lives in some flat i dont get to see him very much so i thought my life was like total shit. then when the summer holidays came my life went up and i was more happy and i started to love my life, and i was okay like last weekend, now i feel like everythings going back down again... schools gunna make everything worse, my mum and sister keep having huge arguments and i have to sit thee and listen to it i REALLY dont wanna go to school cos its gna ruin everything and my lifes gna get worse again. speshly cos i hav drama on the first day back and i swear my teacher hates me, im the quiestest one in the class and he knows it, but he still forces me to get up infront of the class and do improvisation crap. i hate it. most of the time i dont have a clue what to say and the whole class and the teacher jus sit staring at me.. i cant stand it!! i dont want to sit through another one of his lessons. im rubbish at drama and im in set 1! i dont get it
what do i dooo i dont want my life to be like it used to be and it really feels like its going that way, and im really scared about going to school and drama :'(

woaahhh essay alert. sorry if that doesnt make sense but i had to rite it somewhere....

Well, if you don't like drama then why did you take it?

It's natural to feel stressed about going back to school, and i'm sorry that you didn't have exactly a fun time with it last year. However, just because your last year was shitty, doesn't mean this one will be. Try to talk to people. I doubt that people "don't like you" just cause, they may just not know you well enough, and probably don't feel comfortable approaching someone who seems upset. (if you have cuts on your hand, they're clearly visible, and some people don't know what to say or how to react to that). I'm sorry to say, but you're going to have to put yourself out there to other people, which can be stressful, but you can't make friends with anyone unless you do that. Also, it sounds like your home situation is causing you some stress. Don't see school as an added stress, but rather as an escape. When you're there, you don't have to deal with your issues at home.

[kdee]

woaahhh essay alert. sorry if that doesnt make sense but i had to rite it somewhere....

I smell 13, tired, hormones, and scared. Some of your problems are probably hormonally induced; others are probably legitimate.

Due to the extreme incoherence of your post, I'm simply going to recommend that you get a good night sleep and calm attempt to re-sort out your thoughts in the morning when your mind is clear..

[El Badass]

Make small talk with the person sitting next to you it may be awkward but 9 times outa 10 they will start to become your friend. Trust me if you just be a little more out going people will start to become your friends