I Dont know what to do/ how I feel

**54321** · Nov-21-2009 11:56 PM

I have a few questions and instead of posting all them separate I figured that I would put them all into one. (If this is against the rules please tell me because I did not mean to and I wouldn’t do it again this way) Is this breaking the rules?

So there is this girl who I am friends with her sister and I met her on the first day of school. The thing is that she is a freshman and I am a junior but I am supposed to be a senior and is the age of a senior. Do you think that it is wrong for us to go out?

During the school day we would be with each other a lot and stuff and people would think were dating but then we would both deny and I would be like naw that’s wrong to do im like so much older than her (im 3 years older than her).

Then one Friday (about the week before Halloween) we both stayed after school and we hung out and she’s changes into shorts and then we walk around but cant find a spot so we go to the library wich was closed but our school is badly built. There we hang and she lets me put something in her bra. Then later when she had to go home she changes in frount of me and then a little after she let me touch and see her breasts and im showing her my dick and she gives me a two stroke hand job lol Even before this day when chatting online it was sortive like flirting so that night I figured I would ask her out and she said yes.

Then through out the following days during school I would discreetly finger her through her jeans and the next Friday we hung after school again an I started fingering her but like hands in pants.

And we would be together a lot during the school day, text and talk on line a lot but we had to keep our relationship a secret because she was scared her sister would get her in trouble and even tho im friends with her ex she was concerned that he would beat me up

Then sadly one weekend I tell her something and tell her not to tell anyone but she tells someone who luckily already knew but I then flipped out at her for it. About half an hour later I send her a message (this was all on facebook) appoliging but then she responds that she just wants to be friends for now. Sorry I know story telling not allowed but I thought it may be good to post the back round. If she says that she wants to be friends for now do you think that may mean that she may wanna be together again in the future?

Then she says that she thought it was getting a little awk between us and I knew something was wrong because that Thursday at school she stopped hugging me that day but did the next day and the day before. Im not the kind of guy who likes hugs but I like hugging her. What does that mean about between us?

Then on the chat we had about the break up we talk and she says no u go out with someone because u like them. Does that mean she liked me too and that’s y she went out with me?
(I sortive felt that she did because she felt bad for me or something)

Then we are still friends but recently shes with this one guy a lot so I ask her if there going out with him but shes like no he has a boyfriend and hes just with me so I don’t get in trouble. But he skips class to be with her all the time and he doesn’t get in trouble for it. I sortive don’t like it so am I jealous?

I am depressed and wish my life was like hers, think about her a lot, I check her facebook and sortive stalk her sadly not meaning to and I try to talk with her when ever I can. Also her sister has a boy friend who im also friends with and my ex isn’t really allwed to talk with him but when ever hes over they all hang out and the three of them (or two just my friend and her bf) would talk about there plains and I feel sad and left out. The three of them are always together and have fun and I am always home because my mom over protective and doesn’t let me go anywere but I don’t get invited. What does it mean about this all?

Does this all mean that I still like her?

**Sic** · Nov-22-2009 01:20 AM