Why is it that I hate everything about myself..

[AndrewDearheart]

When almost everyone around me loves me? People tell me all the time that I'm smart, funny, good looking (Hell, yesterday one of my friends even said I was "hot enough to be a porn star"), etc. but it seems that whatever they say, I just can't accept it. No, I'm not one of those people that actually argues with the person complimenting me, all I do is say "thank you" and move on..I guess you could say I'm a perfectionist, always doing my absolute best to make everything perfect..

Like, out of nowhere, when there's nothing upsetting me, I'll just list all the things in my head that I hate about myself. And almost every day someone reminds me of the exact opposite. I pretty much think all the time, "I hate the way I act, why do I say this, act like this?" when people tell me "Andrew, you're so fun to be around, you're polite and funny!". The situations go on..I think I'm overweight, others say I'm losing weight. I think I look really ugly, others say I can be a porn star.

There are so many people out there that just absolutely love themselves, why can't I just be one of them...? *sigh*

end pointless vent here

[OhSnap!]

Dudeee, that totally sucks.
And it sucks more that I know what your talking about..
Maybe try and not listen to yourself?
:/

[counterpoint]

Andrew,

I know where you're coming from, as I've battled those feelings myself. They don't necessarily depict real life, but they reflect how you look at yourself. When you look at yourself in the mirror, do you pinpoint all your bad qualities, before noticing the good things? When you say something, or laugh, wear a pair of clothes, do you regret those choices after you've made them?

If you do, then it's just simply your emotions getting the better of you. Some people take the compliments others give them lightly, and others take them as "why are you continuing to patronize me?" No one's ever going to be perfect, Andrew-- that's just an impossible thing to achieve. You just have to take a step back, look at yourself in the mirror, and think "I'm not as bad as I think I am."

Sometimes, the best thing to do when you feel yourself slipping into those types of thoughts about self-hatred is to just divert your mind onto something more entertaining, or to just shut your mind off completely. It's easier said than done sometimes, but generally, it works, and after you've been able to stop the those negative thoughts, you'll be able to feel better about yourself, along with keeping an active routine to maintain a good lifestyle, and have inner peace, so you're not so hard on yourself.

I hope that helps you a little bit. It's just your thoughts running crazy. From your avatar picture, I can say that you don't look ugly, more so quite attractive, and you have good grammar skills, which also proves to be a sign of some quality intellegence.

All the best, bro.