I'm done.

[totallygay13]

I feel so alone. unimportant. unwanted. my dad shows no care for my problems. he wants me to do better in school but doesnt care about why im doing bad in school. my teachers show no care for the reasons as to why im failing my classes they just dont like that im failing. the teachers that i have this year that i didnt have last year dont know why im failing yet. and every time i don't turn in homework or dont participate in class i just feel worse. i show no care for school on the outside but on the inside it hurts me when i dont do the work. but i dont know how to ask for help. i dont know. im used to feeling useless and dumb. i started taking sharp-ish objects and scratching myself with them. but now i really cut myself. it doesnt even help me really. i just like the feeling. i feel worse then before because i realise my moms death was just an excuse to hide that i was truly just depressed about everything even before she started haing more problems. she was probably the only one who really would have cared. the more i think about suicide the more it seems to be the best choice. i just dont know how to be truly happy, only how to fake happiness around those who would bring up the fact that im not happy. i've lost care for things i love to do. i've lost care for people i love. i've lost care for myself. i live in constant fear and can only imagine one way to get out of the fear. to break the illusion. i dont even think i really want help from posting this. i just wanted to tell someone. Goodbye

[sean]

You're going through a tough time but giving up isn't going to make it any easier. Think of all the things you might miss if you weren't here: finding a relationship, winning the lottery (it could happen). I went through similar issues at school, you need to find someone and talk to them. That's the only way you can get help. It will feel a lot better to get it out, to have someone besides yourself know. I know this from personal experience.

[totallygay13]

no one will listen. i've told my father my school counselor my old therapist my new therapist my teachers. no one ever listens.

[Klrvette]

Maybe you're relying to much on everyone else to help you. I went through the same problems that you're going through, just without a death in the family. It just seems like no one cares cause you really expect them too. Try not to rely on your family and peers to much. Another thing, I can tell that you're in pain cause of your mom as well, and I know you're wishing that you would wake up one morning, and that she'll be standing there in the kitchen making eggs or something. And maybe your dad wants to care but can't because when he looks at you, he sees her, and because you and your mom were so close, it puts him in pain. But suicide, or cutting, or drugs isn't going to fix things and you already know this. The best advice I can give you is try not to think about it so much, and just find something to occupy your time. Friends, a club at school, or just go outside, lay in the grass and watch the clouds. I hope this helps you bud.

[SentimentalTune]

Let me tell you something.

I fucking hate my life, I hate almost everyone, I cry alot, I don't really trust people, I see things that not there, and I get mad fun of. I hate the faimly I live with, they hate me, I hate them, they piss me off, I want to kill them, and ect.

This have been my life for 3 years. I made new friends, now they hate me. I don't even do anything bad! My mom and dad have like a few friends because there bitches.

I use to cut myself. I just fucking suck it up now! I cry every day too, that helps alot! I want to die sometimes! Like I do now! And in a little I'll be happy. I really need help! So suck it up like me. Your learn how to do it one day.

[Troy]

Let me tell you something.

I fucking hate my life, I hate almost everyone, I cry alot, I don't really trust people, I see things that not there, and I get mad fun of. I hate the faimly I live with, they hate me, I hate them, they piss me off, I want to kill them, and ect.

This have been my life for 3 years. I made new friends, now they hate me. I don't even do anything bad! My mom and dad have like a few friends because there bitches.

I use to cut myself. I just fucking suck it up now! I cry every day too, that helps alot! I want to die sometimes! Like I do now! And in a little I'll be happy. I really need help! So suck it up like me. Your learn how to do it one day.

everything you just said is 100% me, except for the cutting part

[Shreyas]

I remember your old threads and know that you have went through a lot of problems. What I would say you need to talk with your father about the problem, he will understand if he doesn't you can talk here on gov, members will help you. Talk with your teacher about what you are facing problems in studies ask him/her some simple ways to study etc. Suicide is not an answer to your question. this problems are temporary they will get solved but you have a long way to go.

[Bostonhero99]

Dude sounds like you're having a tough time. One thing I know from experience is that it feels sooooo much better when you let out your emotions, either by letting someone close to you that you really trust know, or (sounds weird) just crying your eyeballs out, Trust me you should feel better. If this doesn't work, or if you ever just need help, seek medical assistance, they will understand

[skylineaddict]

I am pretty much in the same position. I don't talk to anyone about my problems, but that is a mistake that you shouldn't make. I can guarantee you there is someone at your school that is willing to talk to you about your problems. There's people on here willing to talk to you about your problems.

I know, already, that you want help and you've already taken the first step to it. You've posted it on here. Just carry on going with that flow. Let everything out, and you'll be feeling better in no time.