This post is a follow up to my blog (Pressure To Go All The Way).
Today at school, I told my friend that I did not want him to ask me to go all the way anymore. I told him that his pressure made me feel like the only reason he was my friend anymore, was so that I would have sex with him. I told him I was not ready, and that when and if i decided that I wanted him to be my first, I would let him know. Well... He got very angry at me, called me a tease and said I had just been letting
So at 13, I am well into my "Messing around sexualy phase". Ive done just about everything, except "IT". I have one really good friend that I like to mess around with, and up to now, it has been cool doing what we do. The other day, my friend asked me if I wanted to try going all the way. He said that he would let me do it to him, If I let him do it to me. Ive thought about what it will be like to go all the way many times, but Ive always been really scared to do it. I guess
He is in my class, second row front, two rows left of me. Im constantly shooting him glanses, but he sits in front of me, so its not like he can ever see me. I wish he would see me. We are not really friends, we have talked and hung out in the same groups before, but Im not sure he even remembers my name. I get nervious and shy when I am around him, and if he speaks to me, I turn red and start sweating. It gets hard to breeth, and I feel weak in the legs. Am I falling in love. Is this what love
I was too busy in the middle of August and kinda forgot to update.
But I do it now as I think that my puberty is starting.
Age: 13 and 7 months (almost)
penis lenght hard: 12cm - 4,7inches noticeable change
penis circumference 8 cm - 3,1 inches small change
testicles - they look equal. each 2,5cm (1inches) in lenght and 1,6cm (0,63inches) wide, big change!!! My balls are growing
The brainstorming is beginning. Creative juices are starting to flow. Blogging is happening. So, nothing really happened today that I can write about. Let's see.....I'm about to go through a day of my life. I woke up late today, did all my business. I hear my friend blaring his horn, so I run outside. Get to school, walk around for twenty minutes. Go to art....Wait! I am working on this individuality project. I think it's pretty good so far....what you think:
Updated Sep-07-2012 at 12:46 AM by CranberryBridge