love child

[wise mokey]

I hate being a love child and the oldest grand child in my family. its so hard on me because I never had childhood memories with my real father he was never there for me and I have to carry the burden of my family as well ,my family expect to much of me and I hate that it stresses me out to much I can't take it anymore sometimes I feel like I should end my life to relive me of stress cause smoking an't cutting it

[pheurton]

People expect things high of you and you consider killing yourself? Such an action would be absoloutly stupid.

If you've ever watch 10 Things I Hate About You, you'll have heard the phrase of living up to your own expections, not anyone elses. So true. But remember, they obviously think high of you if they are giving you high expectations. Say an expectation is to get an A in so and so, at least you know they feel you are capable of getting it. The problem is that you're father not being there for you is not your own fault, it is his. Don't take it as such.

[Savage]

You obviously have a few familly problems that are probably mounting on depression, you should try and see a doctor about it who will refer you to get help to help you feel better.

Away from that, try talking to the people say how you feel, you shouldn't have to carry your familly's load you're 14 not 40, try to keep relaxed and try not to think too much about your problems have escapes like riding or walking out or even reading just get your mind away fromthe house, excersising can helpo you feel better it sounds stuplid but it really can you have to try and eat and be physicallyhealthy as well to help.

Bu tobviously you have some real issues other than just depression, you have to think positive and try and notuice when you are making yourself feel worse. But you just have to talk to people you know people who are making you feel the pressure.

Trust me it seems like hell but say youj will get through it, this is really corny but sometimes a mantor (i tihnk thats the name of them) like a little motto type thing can help. I found one in the song
"Theme " by Public Image Ltd (PIL) - "I wish I could die, I will survive"
Maybe its just me but if you've heard the song then it'll probaBLY BE BETTER :P

[wise mokey]

You obviously have a few familly problems that are probably mounting on depression, you should try and see a doctor about it who will refer you to get help to help you feel better.

Away from that, try talking to the people say how you feel, you shouldn't have to carry your familly's load you're 14 not 40, try to keep relaxed and try not to think too much about your problems have escapes like riding or walking out or even reading just get your mind away fromthe house, excersising can helpo you feel better it sounds stuplid but it really can you have to try and eat and be physicallyhealthy as well to help.

Bu tobviously you have some real issues other than just depression, you have to think positive and try and notuice when you are making yourself feel worse. But you just have to talk to people you know people who are making you feel the pressure.

Trust me it seems like hell but say youj will get through it, this is really corny but sometimes a mantor (i tihnk thats the name of them) like a little motto type thing can help. I found one in the song
"Theme " by Public Image Ltd (PIL) - "I wish I could die, I will survive"
Maybe its just me but if you've heard the song then it'll probaBLY BE BETTER :P


thanks for the advice I will put it to good use